Man, oh, man. Today has been a doozy.
Last December (at least in my memory) was so great. I did almost all of my shopping online and I don't really remember going to the store much at all.
However, this year, the past two weeks have been filled with running around, I think, every day. Store to store. Doctor appointments. Pick up and drop off from school or work. Browsing gifts. Re-browsing gifts. And whatever else. Everyday it's seemed like I plan to clean the house (or at least the kitchen and living room! i could live with just those two!), but something comes up and suddenly dinnertime is here. The house is a bigger mess than it was before. The kids are fighting. If Nels isn't working late, he does a quick load of dishes for me - yet the sink is still overflowing, because one load of dishes every other day just ain't gonna cut it. I unsuccessfully search the house for clean pajamas or "run to the store to get something really quick". The kids are in bed. Violet or Elsie isn't feeling well. Somebody has to use the bathroom thirteen times. There are still pajamas or dragons to sew. Teepees to be made. Presents to be wrapped --- if only I could open my bedroom door and/or find a place amid all the bags and clothes to do it! 2:30 in the morning already?? And then it starts over.
Ugg.
Due to unforeseen circumstances, we'll be leaving a day earlier than we'd been planning to leave. One less day to do laundry, clean, and sew.
Last night I was up until 2:00 sewing Toothless's head and part of his body.
It was my week to teach in Relief Society. I didn't even look at the lesson until 6:30 this morning, right after I'd prayed to ask the Lord if it would be okay if just this ONE Sunday I used it to find my kitchen and living room -- maybe even the laundry room floor. (Because, you know, nobody has any clean panties to wear.)
I cracked open my lesson manual. Lesson title: "The Sabbath Day"
Am I faithless if I sweep my kitchen floor, do the dishes, mop, vacuum, and do two loads of laundry on the Sabbath? Don't get me wrong. I know that at times the ox is in the mire, but . . . what if YOU drove the ox into the mire, thinking that you'd have time to deal with it later if you got stuck - plus, even though you've gotten stuck there before, HEY! it's a shortcut . . .
Violet has CROUP. Nels was up repeatedly taking care of her. This morning her breathing was terrible, but Nels had to teach as well. Who was going to stay home with her? We'd just go and not let her get close to anyone.
I needed to be at the church at 8:15 to practice the song the choir is singing in Sacrament Meeting. Fifteen minutes late because I needed to do 4 heads of hair. For kids who'd been crying since they opened their eyes this morning. Got there right as they were finishing the practice.
Lilie won't stop mauling Violet. Violet is squirming everywhere, but I can't let her down. What if she coughs on someone else? Hazel and Lilie switch seats. Hazel is wiping her nose and her hair-do all over my arm.
All during Sacrament Meeting, I was on the verge of tears. Feeling completely overwhelmed and I wasn't even sure why. Am I smearing mascara all over, wiping my eyes??
Getting irritated with Hazel and Lilie fighting.
Nels leans over and mouths, "Relax." (I'm sorry Nels, for the severe stink-eye you got right before I walked up to sing about the Savior's birth.)
As the Meeting ends, Beverly Reed (one of the sisters I Visit Teach) comes up to ask if I'd woke Violet up from her nap, because she sounded tired.
"Um . . . no. She's got croup . . . " At that point my voice breaks, my face scrunches up, and I just start sobbing. Complete with snorting "hup-hups" and all.
Good grief.
And you know what that sweet sister does? She tells me to take my baby home, take a nap, and she's going to teach my lesson. And all the while, she somehow manages to make me feel like
I'm the one doing
her the favor for letting
her serve
me . . .
Oh Lord. Please bless all those sweet angels in my life.